That kinda reminds me of PnP D&D days. One can get used to being the Dungeon Master and not the player sometimes. I could play NPC's, develop plots and scenarios, AND mess with the player's heads at the same time, heh. Pluses and minuses to both though. Sometimes it was nice to take a break and just play. I'd definitely put you in the DM camp at the moment due to all the content you add to BG. :)
This year's been rough on my physical and mental health overall, but Christmas has served as rehabilitation of sorts. Here's to the next being... well, not just better, it's not hard to be better than what I've dealt with this year. I'm optimistic for the future though.